When talking about all the weirdness we have in common
it felt so right.
I guess just a little to right!
I think i got carried away just a bit to much.
But yesterday i said all there was to say
and i should be relieved?
Which i am...
I'm just waiting for it all to sink in.
The thing i don't understand is this:
Why does it always feel right for me, but not the other way around?
Is this a vicious circle of misunderstanding?
Cause when it is... i want out!!
" All i need to hear is that your not mine"
Is that sooo freaking difficult??!
Hmm, this is my being mad at the universe,
instead of being sad!
I may eat tomatoes and bananas again!
I see a mountain of opportunities here for dishes to be created!
Kitchen, here i come...
I decided i'm only going to post happy things,
There is this song which i hate,
but the lyrics explain so accurately how i feel
that it keeps wondering around in my head.
... " When your dreaming with a broken hart,
the waking up is the hardest part.
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was he really here? " ...
It's a week ago...
... but it's still leaving my totally and utterly confused!
Better already though!
( Me bee pixxie!Collapse )
" Absurd, my obsession....
... with someone new.
Don't feel like someone new
The connection is real with someone new
In this tomb i call love
I get so lonesome with you
or without you sweetheart
The hellhound's here
Hallucinate my love... "
I may have given you the wrong impression..."
Hmm, story of my life! :(
Major nervous breakdown yesterday night
It had been a while since i cried my eyes out!
I still hate the fact that he gets to me.
When he's not around it's all good.
But every time i see him
i get so freaking fucking emotional.. hate that argghh hate that! !
There's probably other stuff which didn't make it any easier!
I have to start with new medicine
and i'm a little freak out by it.
My laptop dies slowly and i don't have any money to buy a new one!
It's probably gonna get better....
... always nice to write some stuff down on lj!
Plus i can always watch Ally McBeal, best serie everrr!
I wish i wasn't so predictable...
If only I had the right words to say to keep this journal alive!
Been driving from Roosendaal till the end of the world...
... but totally worth it!
Cause i got my Lowlands ticket!